[A-ah... a head-pat. Tohsaka dips her head a little so that her hair hides the way color rises to her face. In turn her hand loosens her grip on his thigh, and she even strokes his leg briefly as an unspoken apology.]
Don't worry. You cannot be worse than the ideal mage.
[Pulling his hand back on the wheel, Van thinks about the weight of those words. He's dealt and interacted with all kinds of shady scumbags in his line of work, yet he never allowed himself to be fully tainted in that darkness. That's why it was important to put up a mask sometimes to make sure that the world's evils didn't break you and making sure people didn't see through you. Even if that meant becoming the villain, yet never fully committing to that role.
Even as a child, he's seen the worst that humanity has to offer. Despite that, it was almost impressive that he wasn't on some crusade for revenge or anything like that. There were just some ideals that he would never fully compromise on.]
So in your mind... What do you think a mage should be like? It sounds like that side of society has a strict definition to follow.
Mm, it's not about what I think. Mages are researchers. They all desire one thing, to reach the Root — the source of all Mystery and phenomena in this world. It doesn't matter how many people are hurt or suffer from their methods of reaching it. As long as magecraft and Mystery stay secret from the common public the Mage's Association will not intervene. Mages are meant to be cold, calculating, and do only what's necessary to further their goals.
[As such there is no such thing as "cruelty" or "evil" to a mage. Only what works, and what doesn't.]
[Van couldn't help and feel an uncomfortable twist in both his heart and stomach. Those types of people are ones that he knows all too well. He thinks back to those cold days whenever he was strapped down to a table and was experimented on like a guinea pig. The D∴G cult didn't care who or what was sacrificed in the end... As long as it benefited their own goals.
Those days when his only meals were those bitter Gnosis pills... Those days when he lost everything including his sense of self. Those days that he couldn't even speak... If he wasn't saved by his Master, then who knows what kind of person he'd be now?]
I can say this from my own personal experience, Tohsaka... You're absolutely nothing like that. You may walk along those kinds of people, but it feels like you've chosen your own path. One that hasn't rejected humanity, yet hasn't abandoned your magecraft teachings either... Am I wrong?
...Did you ever consider your philosophy talk is a huge mood killer?
[Pot vs Kettle, but she honestly doesn't want to answer him. Not in the slightest. Even after all that happened with the Grail, Tohsaka is still trying to find her place and attempting to be like her father. Separate from humanity without being cruel or wicked. A mage shouldn't revel in the misfortune of others, but they shouldn't be overly concerned about their happiness either.]
Hey... I'm just rambling to myself with some green tea in hand over here. But if you ever wanna shut me up, then I'm sure you can come up with a few ways being as resourceful as you are.
[But he's not hearing a no from her. That was okay, though... Van himself was still trying to make his own path in the world too. But he meant what he said whenever he felt that she wasn't like those creeps he knew back then and even now. Compared to them, Rin's scent was much more pleasant.]
Anyway, I'm just here to say that you're a good girl. Even if you're like a cat that likes to bite at my freakin' heels from time to time.
[He's trying his best to sound annoyed, but it comes out more amused instead. Van was secretly a cat lover even if he didn't seem like the type.]
[Green tea? He's already trying to paint a picture of serenity and wisdom and they haven't even gotten to the onsen yet. What a dork. Resourceful, though. Yeah, she is that. And his little "good girl" comment strikes something in her so deeply that she decides to put her resourcefulness to work. Her hand finding itself at his thigh again, but this time purposefully up high and curving toward his inseam.]
[Feeling her hand on his pants makes Van do a double take and it was much higher this time. She wasn't going to do what he thought she was going to do, was she?! He felt that he was good at reading people at times, but there was no predicting what this wild girl would do next! He realizes that he couldn't get distracted here...!]
--H-Hey... What's going on? What are you up to now?!
[He wants to sound to authoritative, but it comes out more flustered instead. Maybe he's overthinking things... It wouldn't be the first time that's happened. But his body was becoming far more honest than his words. He could feel his heart racing and the hints of an erection starting.
Calm down, Arkride. You've got the road to focus on... You've been in tighter situation than this...!]
Hmm? Aren't I being a resourceful good girl? Are you trying to say if I leaned over into your lap that you wouldn't pat my head?
[She won't give him much longer to think about it. Her palm grazes over here his growing interest starts to become evident. Gently she applies stroking pressure there before moving upward toward his waistband. Hm... would she have to get through a buckle or just a button and zipper?]
[He was doing his damnest to not sound vulnerable right now, but what escapes from his throat are strained grunts. His hips wiggle beyond his own control to the rhythm of her touch. This just wasn't fair at all! If she wants to go further, she simply had to get through a belt buckle, button and a zipper. It's a triple A.T field threat!]
For the love of-- You can't be serious right now! How can I even do that when my hands are on THE WHEEL, you dummy!?
Isn't that just an excuse? You're not going very fast. You can probably drive with one hand.
[In fact her seat belt allows Rin to lean forward just enough so both her hands can begin unbuckling him. He actually hasn't told her to stop yet, and so she hasn't really paused or halted in her work. Besides... despite his protests he seems interested. Would he be able to continue driving? Or would he be so overwhelmed he'd have to pull over?]
A-Are you really testing my driving skills, you damn brat? I oughta--
[Van's idle threat was cut off with a soft grunt whenever she unbuckles his pants out to bring out his cock. Her observation is definitely right... Even if he's trying to act like he isn't interested, his body is singing a different tune. What helped was the fact the road in front of them was clear of traffic right now. On one hand, he knows that he should tell her to stop and focus on the ride. Yes, that's the logical thing to do. The mature thing to do.
But on the other hand? He's never had this happen to him before... And despite trying his best to stay level-headed, he could feel his heart racing with more excitement.]
Hah... Alright, fine. If you want that headpat so bad, then you better not choke if we pick up speed.
[She pushes the top portion of the seat belt behind her so she can lean more properly. One hand tucks a lock of dark, wavy hair behind her ear before she finally frees his cock from his pants. He springs forth with obvious interest.
The flushed, sensitive skin is precious and eye-catching. In all honesty she hasn't really been with anybody since they parted ways, so its been some time since she has seen anyone like this. Leaning in more, he'll be able to feel the warm puff of her breath. Eventually? The soft press of her lips. The vibration of her pleased hum as she kisses the stiff tip of his erection.]
[And on his end, Van hasn't sleeping around either. Not that he was the type who usually goes around flirting with women or taking a trip over to the Dark-Light District to pay for some fun at the brothels there. Even whenever he was offered by the women over there, he found himself turning them down. And it was from more than simple embarrassment or just being a diffcult grumpy old man.
They would always say: "Oh... There's someone already on your mind, isn't there? How cute! ♥ You're blushing just thinking about them!" Was this the infamous woman's intuition that he's heard about? What a terrifying thing to be seen through by.
Just like how his cock was flush, Van felt his cheeks turning red as well. The simple gesture of watching her brush back her hair like that makes his heart race more. He reminds himself to keep his eyes on the road as focuses ahead, but he couldn't hold back a rather vulnerable grunt whenever he feels Rin's lips pressing up against his tip. He moves one hand over to gently rest his strong hand against her elegant hair...
For all of his brusqueness, his touch was gentle as he begins to stroke his fingers through her locks.]
[Hah. When was the last time someone rested their hand in her hair? Was it him? Before that it was her father. Ignorantly tussling her hair far too haphazardly for how an adult should be handling a child — but she forgave him. The man wasn't all that familiar with interacting with her affectionately, physical or otherwise. But Van... he was gentle. Sweet and soft as he handled her. Like something precious.]
You should be more talkative, you know.
[As if he'll be able to say much when she continues. Her soft lips parting to envelop that flushed head with wet heat. She'll take him in slow. Inch-by-inch reaching for as far as her seatbelt will allow her while she leans like this. The taste of him is familiar, and considerably more appealing than her routine medicine.]
[Now that just wasn't fair! Even now, Van felt like she had him pinned up against the wall. From his perspective, Rin was always like a shining jewel through the darkness. Sometimes, she was that one thing that reminded him to keep going. Just the thought of holding out a little longer to see her again. His hips buckle as she continues to bring him deeper into her mouth. Feeling himself becoming more strained, he says...]
W-well... Whaddya want me to say here?
[Just like hitting a loose block on a castle... Van's cool facade could be easy to break through once you knew how to press his buttons. The kind, yet awkward man that he truly was deep down. There were some days that he wished that he could harden his heart to steel completely... But he just couldn't do that. He was more half-baked than the cakes that he loved to eat sometimes. His fingertips continue to affectionately run through her hair...]
That I missed this feeling? That I missed you a whole lot?
[Of all things, he knew that he couldn't lie about that. If not, his body would absolutely do the talking for him more.]
[Wait, what? WHAT?! The sounds that Van makes almost comes off like a comedically choking cat as he's completely tongue-tied and blue-balled all that once. She did all of that and made him say all of that?! Well, technically... He said all of that embarrassing stuff by himself.]
QUIT JERKING ME AROUND! DON'T SAY ANYTHING ELSE FOR THE REST OF THE RIDE!
[Ugh! What did he do to deserve this!? He's red in the face as he's yelling... Completely embarrassed over that whole thing. Either way, he's going to go silent until they finally reach the resort up ahead! He's totally not sulking as he finds a nice little parking space.
[Oh! Fine, if that's how he wants it, then she'll shut up. She'll even sit up right, re-adjust her seatbelt, and lean toward the car door window instead. Leaving Van with an unsucked stiffy as he drives. Cock still out in the open, and all by its lonesome.]
[Huh? Van couldn't help and do a double take at that... She's quiet?! And here he was expecting some kind of sassy comeback, but now she's sitting there and looking pouty!? What did he do? He knew a lot of things in life, but women were still a complete mystery to him.
"What the hell's going on here? She actually listened to me for once? But... Maybe I came off as a bit of dick there. In the first place, we're here to have fun."
This should count as a victory on his part, but he doesn't feel like he's won. The silence makes him almost uncomfortable in fact. Especially with his cock out. There's an awkward pause as he settles into a parking space, then he clears his throat a bit.]
Uh... Hey, Rin? You okay there? Look... I ain't mad at you, alright? It's just, y'know... [Y'know what? Speak, Arkride.] C'mon, make fun of me like you usually do. It's creepy when you aren't mouthing off.
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Don't worry. You cannot be worse than the ideal mage.
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[Pulling his hand back on the wheel, Van thinks about the weight of those words. He's dealt and interacted with all kinds of shady scumbags in his line of work, yet he never allowed himself to be fully tainted in that darkness. That's why it was important to put up a mask sometimes to make sure that the world's evils didn't break you and making sure people didn't see through you. Even if that meant becoming the villain, yet never fully committing to that role.
Even as a child, he's seen the worst that humanity has to offer. Despite that, it was almost impressive that he wasn't on some crusade for revenge or anything like that. There were just some ideals that he would never fully compromise on.]
So in your mind... What do you think a mage should be like? It sounds like that side of society has a strict definition to follow.
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[As such there is no such thing as "cruelty" or "evil" to a mage. Only what works, and what doesn't.]
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Those days when his only meals were those bitter Gnosis pills... Those days when he lost everything including his sense of self. Those days that he couldn't even speak... If he wasn't saved by his Master, then who knows what kind of person he'd be now?]
I can say this from my own personal experience, Tohsaka... You're absolutely nothing like that. You may walk along those kinds of people, but it feels like you've chosen your own path. One that hasn't rejected humanity, yet hasn't abandoned your magecraft teachings either... Am I wrong?
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[Pot vs Kettle, but she honestly doesn't want to answer him. Not in the slightest. Even after all that happened with the Grail, Tohsaka is still trying to find her place and attempting to be like her father. Separate from humanity without being cruel or wicked. A mage shouldn't revel in the misfortune of others, but they shouldn't be overly concerned about their happiness either.]
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[But he's not hearing a no from her. That was okay, though... Van himself was still trying to make his own path in the world too. But he meant what he said whenever he felt that she wasn't like those creeps he knew back then and even now. Compared to them, Rin's scent was much more pleasant.]
Anyway, I'm just here to say that you're a good girl. Even if you're like a cat that likes to bite at my freakin' heels from time to time.
[He's trying his best to sound annoyed, but it comes out more amused instead. Van was secretly a cat lover even if he didn't seem like the type.]
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--H-Hey... What's going on? What are you up to now?!
[He wants to sound to authoritative, but it comes out more flustered instead. Maybe he's overthinking things... It wouldn't be the first time that's happened. But his body was becoming far more honest than his words. He could feel his heart racing and the hints of an erection starting.
Calm down, Arkride. You've got the road to focus on... You've been in tighter situation than this...!]
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[She won't give him much longer to think about it. Her palm grazes over here his growing interest starts to become evident. Gently she applies stroking pressure there before moving upward toward his waistband. Hm... would she have to get through a buckle or just a button and zipper?]
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For the love of-- You can't be serious right now! How can I even do that when my hands are on THE WHEEL, you dummy!?
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[In fact her seat belt allows Rin to lean forward just enough so both her hands can begin unbuckling him. He actually hasn't told her to stop yet, and so she hasn't really paused or halted in her work. Besides... despite his protests he seems interested. Would he be able to continue driving? Or would he be so overwhelmed he'd have to pull over?]
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[Van's idle threat was cut off with a soft grunt whenever she unbuckles his pants out to bring out his cock. Her observation is definitely right... Even if he's trying to act like he isn't interested, his body is singing a different tune. What helped was the fact the road in front of them was clear of traffic right now. On one hand, he knows that he should tell her to stop and focus on the ride. Yes, that's the logical thing to do. The mature thing to do.
But on the other hand? He's never had this happen to him before... And despite trying his best to stay level-headed, he could feel his heart racing with more excitement.]
Hah... Alright, fine. If you want that headpat so bad, then you better not choke if we pick up speed.
[That's the green light so to speak.]
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The flushed, sensitive skin is precious and eye-catching. In all honesty she hasn't really been with anybody since they parted ways, so its been some time since she has seen anyone like this. Leaning in more, he'll be able to feel the warm puff of her breath. Eventually? The soft press of her lips. The vibration of her pleased hum as she kisses the stiff tip of his erection.]
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They would always say: "Oh... There's someone already on your mind, isn't there? How cute! ♥ You're blushing just thinking about them!" Was this the infamous woman's intuition that he's heard about? What a terrifying thing to be seen through by.
Just like how his cock was flush, Van felt his cheeks turning red as well. The simple gesture of watching her brush back her hair like that makes his heart race more. He reminds himself to keep his eyes on the road as focuses ahead, but he couldn't hold back a rather vulnerable grunt whenever he feels Rin's lips pressing up against his tip. He moves one hand over to gently rest his strong hand against her elegant hair...
For all of his brusqueness, his touch was gentle as he begins to stroke his fingers through her locks.]
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You should be more talkative, you know.
[As if he'll be able to say much when she continues. Her soft lips parting to envelop that flushed head with wet heat. She'll take him in slow. Inch-by-inch reaching for as far as her seatbelt will allow her while she leans like this. The taste of him is familiar, and considerably more appealing than her routine medicine.]
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W-well... Whaddya want me to say here?
[Just like hitting a loose block on a castle... Van's cool facade could be easy to break through once you knew how to press his buttons. The kind, yet awkward man that he truly was deep down. There were some days that he wished that he could harden his heart to steel completely... But he just couldn't do that. He was more half-baked than the cakes that he loved to eat sometimes. His fingertips continue to affectionately run through her hair...]
That I missed this feeling? That I missed you a whole lot?
[Of all things, he knew that he couldn't lie about that. If not, his body would absolutely do the talking for him more.]
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Uh... I expected dirty talk, not some sopping wet confession.
[Maybe she should have waited until they got to the resort so he wouldn't be so torn between the road, his feelings, and his cock.]
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W-W-W-What-- You-- I--!
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[Ugh! What did he do to deserve this!? He's red in the face as he's yelling... Completely embarrassed over that whole thing. Either way, he's going to go silent until they finally reach the resort up ahead! He's totally not sulking as he finds a nice little parking space.
(He's definitely sulking)]
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"What the hell's going on here? She actually listened to me for once? But... Maybe I came off as a bit of dick there. In the first place, we're here to have fun."
This should count as a victory on his part, but he doesn't feel like he's won. The silence makes him almost uncomfortable in fact. Especially with his cock out. There's an awkward pause as he settles into a parking space, then he clears his throat a bit.]
Uh... Hey, Rin? You okay there? Look... I ain't mad at you, alright? It's just, y'know... [Y'know what? Speak, Arkride.] C'mon, make fun of me like you usually do. It's creepy when you aren't mouthing off.